Flawless

Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.

Rumi

Diamond Grade – IF and F

For many years of my life I felt, that being emotional and extra sensitive, was my weakness.

I always felt, as if my emotions were pooling me down, making me feel misunderstood and resentful.

When I use to get caught in the emotional rollercoaster, it was no way out, it would take me instantly on the wild ride, without my control, crashing badly my easily bruised ego.

Often keeping me in prison of my own emotions, creating separation, making me feel misunderstood and taking things personally.

Being a total giver, putting always everyone else first, trying to help others before my personal needs were met, left me often drained, tired and angry.

Not having enough time for myself and my emotional needs, feeling taken for granted, not appreciated and totally misunderstood.

Trying to be noticed and complimented for everything I did, looking for love and support, but instead feeling unsupported, lonely and disappointed.

Working hard to make everything perfect, being under the constant inner stress and feeling emotionally drained and taken for granted.

Since my childhood, my life was filled with many responsibilities, and I was always capable to accomplish them exceptionally well.

Taking more and more responsibilities upon my shoulders, working often without any days off, or holidays, looking after my family and my 4 years old daughter, one day manifested in the deterioration of my wellbeing.

Not knowing what was wrong with me, going from one doctor to another, getting repeated an inconclusive test results, not being diagnosed for two years, left me even in the greater stress, not knowing what the future will hold for me.

I decided not to see any more doctors and to take life one day at the time.

As my health condition was getting worse and I developed a bad cough that just wouldn’t go away whatever I tried.

With a strong suggestion from my cousin, I went to see a specialist she knew that might help me with this issue.

After the examination he, as well as many others before him, could not find anything wrong, but mentioned that he worked with a very reputable doctor in this field, who is in his late seventies and still working at the hospital, where they use to work together for 9 years.

And after a long hesitation, I finely decided to go and see this doctor as my last attempt.

I remember that day for as long as I leave…

The moment I walked into his office and took off my blazer, he looked at me from the far end of his room, being surrounded by many young students, and asked:

Where have you been for the last two years?

What do you mean, I answered?

Please, phone home and tell your family, that you are not coming home tonight.

You are staying at the hospital, for the further examination, as you have a lymphatic cancer.

I stood there completely frozen and not capable to make even one step.

I was speechless, scared and lost for words.

It has never crossed my mind that was even possible.

Why me?

What would it happen to my small daughter?

Would I leave to see her grown up, married and having her own children?

Tears were rolling down my face.

That night in the hospital, was the longest night I’ve ever experienced.

I felt scared and lonely, as I was hugging my body, not knowing what to think.

And again, that voice within me, the voice of love and spiritual support I felt before, talking to me from the vail of the darkness, and awakening my inner strength.

And in that moment, I knew, that I am much stronger then that killer disease inside of me.

I didn’t know how my life would unfold, and what will happen, but I gave myself a promise, if there something in this world, that can create a miracle healing, without harmful chemicals, I will find it!

That single thought and my unconditional commitment, changed completely the direction of my destiny!

And with a strong believe and full trust in my heart, life began to open for me, the doors of the unknown knowledge.

Instead of listening to the voice of my inner fear, and opinions of others, who was also feeling scared for me, I decided to listen to the voice of my inner guidance.

I had no knowledge of what I was doing, but only a strong feeling of trust inside of my every cell.

And I felt support, by my guidance, every step of the way.

Regardless of many disappointing experiences, I kept on going, continuously looking for the magical cure, feeling determent to find something, I knew nothing about, but strongly believed in.

I had three weeks to find the alternative way before my chemotherapy treatment, and used already almost all the resources I knew, without any success.

And only one, the very last one, was still remained to be explored.

I took a trip to Frankfurt, to see the head of the homeopathic association of Germany.

She was my very last resource.

During our meeting she was very nice, but as everyone else before her, responded the same way.

She said, she cannot give me any promises, as my case is very specific and unusual, but if I will choose to try it, I would have to refuse any conventional medical treatments.

I felt lost for words and very disappointed.

I had no one else to turn to.

I looked straight into her eyes, as tears start rolling down my face, and said:

I have no one else to consult, and I know that she has a solution for me. I am not going to leave her office until she will give me a clear directions.

It was a moment of total silence, that felt like eternity.

Why don’t you try macrobiotics, she said?

What is it?

I’ve never heard of it?

It is the way to heal your body by using a special diet.

The moment she said that, my whole body start tingling.

It felt so write.

Where can I find someone who can help me?

Don’t worry, I will send you the name of the best person to see.

I felt so happy and so grateful, that I trusted the voice within my heart, and finely I could see the light at the end of a dark tunnel.

And ones again I knew, that my unbreakable trust, determination and perseverance guided me in the right direction.

It is easier to put your life into someone else’s hand and to say:

I am paying you - heal me.

And hope for better outcome

Or to go the hard way, the only way, by taking the full responsibility for your life and your actions, trying to revile the true reason for your illness in the first place.

And then to find your perfect healing solution, transforming your challenges into a sparkly blessings.

There is no greater reward then to discover the power within you.

The power to heal and the power to overcome any life challenges.

To be awakened to know - who you truly are.

The Power of Love

The words cannot express enough

The beauty of the world of love

Like rays of rising blazing sun

Transforming sadness into fun

Love is like warmest day of Spring

Caressing soul with a gentle wind

Awakens thoughts with inner light

And opens heart to joy of life

Love has the power to heal

To restore to renew to revive and to rebuild

Love is the magic force of life

The energy of God inside

With every breath dissolving stress

And makes you feel as loved and blessed

Dispelling darkness like a fog

And lighting path on which you walk

Love is a language of your heart

The burning passion from the light

The gentle whisper of your soul

That keeps you balanced well and whole

Love is the candle in the dark

Like prayer from the depths of heart

Like tender look in lovers’ eyes

Caressing soul with blazing light

It feels like happiness and joy

Like inner peace throughout a storm

And real purpose of your life

Is to open heart and free your light

Revealing beauty of your soul

And feel the oneness with it all

Feel joy and happiness inside for this experience called life.

Poem by Diana-Esther

Internally flawless diamonds are those with visible surface blemishes, but no inclusions.

Becoming internally flawless is becoming selfless, becoming detached from the concept of knowing who you think you are.

By the definition, flawless diamonds are those with no visible inclusions or blemishes.

The flawless diamonds are the most valuable and exceptionally rare.

And not every diamond becomes flawless, due to the different level of resistance, during the process of formation and reaction to the environmental pressure and conditions.

That is why the flawless diamonds are so valuable.

The same applies to us all.

It is almost impossible for us all to perceive ourselves as being absolutely perfect.

As the perfect creation of God, we were meant to experience the total joy of life, feeling oneness and harmony with life and with nature.

The trees and the flowers don’t need to be told, who they are.

They simply are, sharing their beauty and purpose with a world.

Only the humans, having difficulty to believe who they truly are.

Being born with a veil of forgetfulness, into the world of illusion.

Seeing life as a fight, challenge, struggle and not as a greatest gift of love.

Becoming flawless is to be truly joyful and in the flow with your best destiny, becoming one with a source of all life.

Remembering, that you are not the human on the spiritual journey, but the spirit on the human journey.

Living the life of bliss and the inner peace.

But inner peace doesn’t come with understanding, it comes with trust.

What a relief, when you don’t need to understand.

What a relief, simply living with trust in your heart and know, that everything will work out in the best possible way.

Life is not about judging by your limiting standards, life is about truly leaving, witnessing, experiencing and receiving everything that life has to offer.

Life was meant to be an enjoyable experience. Not to be feared but to be loved.

And all things in life serve love.

Open your heart to receive love and the joy of living!

You cannot embrace the whole greatness of this magical gift from the limited vision of your 5 senses.

You cannot experience this true gift of living, by trying to control or conquer life.

You have to allow it!

You cannot control the river of life.

And the reason, that sometimes the force of life cannot flow freely,

because it stumbles on the blockages, the tumble stones of your limiting beliefs.

And each time it is forced to deviate, by tailoring your unique life lesson and specific experience, to bring you back in the flow.

Moving forward with full trust inside your heart, the highest force of an intelligence within you.

No longer feeling alone, in the ocean of life, but instead feeling unconditionally loved and supported for who you are.

Being flawless, is being aligned with your best destiny, living the life of your passion and being guided by the forces of love within your sacred heart.

When you become flawless, every lens of your consciousness becomes crystal clear, letting the light of God fully and freely shine through every facet of your being, creating the life of your dreams and manifesting all your heart desires.

The human gift and purpose of life is to experience joy and happiness.

To see the beauty and perfection in all of the creations, including yourself.

To find everlasting, benevolent love within your precious heart and to fall in love with life and yourself to the fullest.

To elevate hope into knowingness and pulling Heaven down to Earth.

This is not just a wishful thinking, but the reason why we are all here.

When you’ll finally will find, the priceless treasure within your sacred heart, you will never be the same again.

Life will become ongoing happy adventure, filled with curiosity, fearlessness and joy.

You will feel supported, guided and loved in the way you have never felt before.

You will fall in love with life and with who you are, regardless of the inclusions within you.

And when all the facets of your precious diamond within will be polished by love, you’ll see the true beauty, uniqueness and the brilliance of your perfect soul.

And the mirror of life will reflect back to you, your brilliant sparkle, as an infinite force of love and light.

But to achieve that state of bliss, will require a strong commitment and a deep inner work, but it’s so worth it!

And if you are ready to commit and to re-evaluate, what stands on the way of your brilliants, the higher intelligence of life will support you all the way, opening closed doors and letting the light of higher consciousness through.

Most of our desires comes from the lack of something in our life,

something we badly want to experience.

As long as you feel the lack of that what you want, you will continue to attract this lack into your life.

Your body chemistry always making you feel the way you think, keeping you in the loop of the same desire.

Unhappiness is a war between your inner being and your physical self, between your thoughts your feelings.

To win the game of life is to win the war within.

Happiness is a perfect marriage between your thoughts, feelings and emotions.

When there is no longer push and pool in different directions between your mind and your heart, but a total balance and harmony within, reflecting the state of balance and harmony through all the facets of your life.

To achieve this state of perfection you have to open your heart and learn how to listen to the messages of love and not to the messages of a fear.

By choosing love verses fear you choose the life of bliss verses the life of default.

Stepping into your power, feeling align with your divine purpose and shining your sparkling, flawless diamond light into the world, becoming the creator of your life.

Living from the heart is the only true way of living.

Everything you ever wanted, all your dreams and deepest desires, were stored inside of your rough diamond, as your unique inner gifts and divine potential, to bring you joy, abundance and fulfilment.

To grow, to discover, to evolve and to polish, all the facets your personality, through the pressure of challenges and time.

Moulding your unique diamond shape into the frame of your perfect life.

Learning how to listen to your heart and how to infuse the thoughts of love into your personal experience and our collective environment.

When you mind and heart in a perfect alignment and filled with the light of love, the vital force of life, flows with ease and grace through your entire body, and nourishes all the organs with energy of love, restoring rebalancing and healing.

Your mental body, was intended to be, the diamond shining mind of God’s consciousness, polishing each facet of the molecular creation of emotions.

Healing with love and not creating chaos and distortion within your organs.

Let the light of Love to be your medicine that purifies and rejuvenates your mind and your body.

And let the thoughts of your brilliant mind to become the sparkling rays of light, empowering your consciousness, balancing your emotions and freeing you from the limitations and darkness of the negative thinking.

And when the light of unconditional love, begins shining the brilliant light through the facets of the new human consciousness, the world of hatred will evolve into the world of love.

Becoming flawless is becoming one, with the blueprint of your divine destiny.

Feeling alive and connected to the wisdom of your sacred heart, living the life of your dream.

Feeling emotionally free from the past, free to be who you came here to be, shining your brilliant diamond light into the world of love.

The diamond within is a portal of the benevolent, unconditional everlasting divine love.

The purest source of love inside you and me.

By choosing love you choose the freedom of life over the slavery of existence.

By choosing love you choose abundance over poverty.

By choosing love you choose inner peace.

By choosing love you choose world peace.

The Wishes of Heart

My wishes of heart up in the Sky

Like sparkles of light shining through from above

Help me to open myself to receive

all that I need to make dreams complete

Teach me the wisdom and guide me through life

Let me discover my inner light

Help me to see the God’s s essence in all

With magic of love and the light that it holds

How can I feel the compassion in me

And shine my truth as example to be

How can I find that tread

That keeps me connected with my source direct

An angel has heard the cry of my heart

And gently whispered the words from above:

Find the feeling that leaves in your soul

And let it all out with a smile that is bold

Cover with gold all that is you

And let light of God handle for you

Free yourself from the hatred and anger

With help of love being your anchor

You will transform yourself and the world

Simply by changing the thoughts that you hold

Heaven on Earth depends on us

On our willingness to let go of the past

If all of the world will leave from the heart

We will bring heaven to earth from above

If peace be the goal forever to know

remember the words - As Above So Below

Poem by Diana-Esther

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